Polar extremities

Yesterday I felt on top of the world, today however I feel like I’ve crashed to the bottom.

The other day, I hosted a party, flitted around the room chatting to everyone. Today I cannot even reply to a text message.

At the same party I feed over 20 people, today I am struggling to feed myself. Eating because I should, not because I want to.

2 days ago I was telling myself I am fu**ing awesome and high fiving myself in the mirror, today I’m telling myself I am a failure and can’t even bring myself to look at my reflection.

I cannot even try to understand the polar extremities of the swinging pendulum of my emotions but now know that I can’t change them but only accept them.

I take the lows because I know the highs will follow.